I Swear I’m Not Dead

Hey guys, it’s been about a month and a half since I’ve written anything on this website and even longer since I’ve written directly to you in this context. This year has been very stop-start on the whole, and that’s my bad. So, so much stuff has been happening, and I look back to the beginning of the year and see a completely different person with completely different goals in life, different temperament, different everything.

I really feel like I have started anew as of late. I am at college, but it’s not just that. Maybe it’s that I just turned 18, or maybe I’m getting very reflective because I’m a bit sleepy, but I look forward, and I clearly see the blazing, marble foundations of the person I could become, and I look to the past and see the foggy winding steps that were necessary for me to get to this point. I have gone through a labyrinth, as we all do, and I have come out the other side and now look back in reflection. Whatever that fucking means.

It’s funny. I have tried to pick up journaling while I’ve been at college, but now that I am sitting down and writing again on this website, I realize that this has always been my journal, or at least, this has always been my journal, since I was…15 I think? Again, to look to the past, the person I was when I started this thing is unrecognizable, both in terms of the stock market and in terms of being a man, which I legally now am. I was such an ass ;). But I feel myself changing each day nonetheless, and it is obviously exciting, but I will admit that it is a bit surreal to sit here and type away on a Macbook about my thoughts, as I did for three years, three times a week, often forcing myself to because I thought it was necessary to achieve my potential. Again, whatever that fucking meant.

There are things I guess I cannot say here, but if you are a dedicated Pax Romana reader, and props to you for sticking around this long if you are, just know that I am crushing it right now. I don’t mean literally that I am soaring at all times socially, emotionally, and professionally, just that I have become in some respects, the guy I was hoping I would become when I started this. Whatever that potential was that I was hoping to achieve, I have achieved in many ways. Obviously I still get ahead of myself and am very proud of my own thoughts, but I am not that kid who started this website when he was in 15 in Charleston, South Carolina in a guest room in his grandmother’s house because he was worried that he wasn’t going to ever do anything.

And there is so much more for me to do, and I look forward to that greatly. Very soon, I hope to be posting a write-up. This write-up should be of a much, much higher quality than the ones in the past. Your boy is trying, really trying as hard as I can, to get into a junior analyst position at a HF right out of undergrad, which obviously takes some work and better stock-pitching skills than I currently have. I’ve been grinding the Bloomberg Terminal (figuring out how it works) recently, and I hope to be able to give you guys something that proves my professional maturation.

So to summarize. I am a different person than I was three years ago, even two months ago. I have started a newer and scarier, but assuredly incredible, chapter of my life, and I will not forget my humble Pax Romana Capital/Beallian Investing roots. Thank you…

Henry Beall